THE TALK
I had THE TALK (not just ANY talk but THE talk) with my mother… the talk that surpasses the importance of the birds and the bees talk… the talk that surpasses the drug and alcohol talk… the talk that is more important that the financial talk… Yes I had THE TALK with my mother, and the talk was about LIFE.
ME time vs YOU time
Oh my gosh i just realized the state where i am at… I DON’T HAVE TIME FOR LOVE… I try so hard to give a part of me to potential love interests but then i get overwhelmed because I start to feel like it almost becomes like a job to keep the relationship going on and lets face it, nowadays if you don’t see the boy in 2 weeks, chances are he is already looking around again… because I never get to the point where i am truly in a relationship with the person… And I realized it is because I am trying to juggle ME time vs YOU time… I have been trying to be healthier and have realized spending time with me myself and I is amazing… you can’t be comfortable or give more to other people unless you are happy within yourself and I have been giving really positive vibes to people and always smiling because I have been taking time to be with myself… and then i disappear for days and can’t be bothered to make the effort if they are not making the effort either and so I disappear off the scene for a while… but you know what, “I don’t depend on a guy to validate me…coz I am happy the way i am” (Single by Natasha Beddingfield)… I am happy with or without and that is the best thing about this situation
Today’s lesson
If a guy doesn’t call you while he is with his parents despite your trying to contact him during that time, he is embarrased with you/ not sure aboout you or JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU! Noticed before… just had that experience today… the truth sucks but it is true… delete the boys number off your phone.. I have!
Coincidence or fate? … Case of the Nicks
Here comes my concept of fate… and the following story will back it up [not factually/ concrete truth but why I believe in fate...]… my concept of fate is that we run into people for a reason. We make decisions sometimes that don’t make any sense but 5/10 years down the line come into effect. We remember certain events clearly and a few months, years this events come back to play a part in that present despite it having being an event in the past… here is a story to put things into perspective… still gives me the chills…
If I beg and If I cry… would it change the sky tonight?
If I beg and if I cry would it change the sky tonight?
Will it give me sunlight?
Should I wait for you to call? Is there any hope at all?
Are you drifting by?
It has finally hit me… Michael Jackson is dead…
After watching Paris Michael Jackson briefly talking about her dad and then taking comfort in Janet Jacksons arm during his star studded memorial, it finally hit me… Michael Jackson is gone forever… we shall never hear his creative geniusness again…ever… I then realized why everyone was making a big deal of his death… every death in my opinion is a day for the world to mourn… It wasn’t only because he was a celebrity but because he grew up with most of us… He was there when my dad was growing up… he was there when i was growing up… my dad and I could always sit around and start singing some of the old songs from his time by Michael Jackson as if they were from my time… There was no generation to young or too old… no topic left off; i.e. Billie Jean… it was cool again to sing about the world and how it needs to heal…It was okay to be different… and for that the world has lost a very special person who needed the world to back off a bit but instead got hounded. Like his brother said at the memorial, maybe now they will leave him alone.
