it seems we’ve reached an impass

It is so crazy that I am about to finish University, if I pass all my units of course! But this is my last week and I have a test tomorrow and I pass that test, I will definately pass that unit but I dont know… I am a little scared because I am not sure if i will pass that test! But looking in the past, I have been at this position and some how managed to pass the unit so fingers crossed!

Okay back to the beginning… It seems like i’ve reached an impass… for the first time in my life I dont know what the future holds… The only thing i know is that I am moving to Sydney but that is basically it! Once I leave Canberra, I am in Gods hands. Everything else will be new. I will leave most of my friends, my ex lover, my lifestyle, all the memories good or bad. Okay you never lose your memories but since i have moved around alot I have unintentionally learned to supress memories when I move to a different country. Anyways Life will be different… I was thinking of going to film school and even that I am not sure of yet because we dont even know what will happen to my dads job when the election run off results in Zimbabwe are released! For the first time I am in a way scared what the future holds but at the same time its kind of exciting because I dont know what the future holds!!! I make my own decisions from now on more than ever and its quite exciting because it is something different and new… My life will change and i know for the better… I will be healthier and wont party as much. I will get a partner who is sweet and like me, always having a blast no matter what even while watching a boring ass movie together hahaha… I will focus on getting a good job and being always positive.

Im definately going into new territoty… my daddy and mommy wont be holding my hand anymore …well they will be a little bit

Cant wait!

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