Family Ties~A letter of Anger!!!

I am VERY angry!

I am angry at my mom and dad for not giving much respect to the one person that loved us the most other than my Grandma …my Uncle J who passed away !

I am REALLY angry at my the family members from my dad’s side for HATING us sooo much…what have we done? Especially for them hating my mom.

I dont hate anyone because it is such a strong word but once my Uncle Jacob and Grandma Mutambara died, my love died for any of them died.

She was the connection but now she is gone and he is gone and I do not have anything left for them… my mom tries so hard for them but i cant… and that is so unlike me! They are dead to me… well expect Mama Sharon from UK and Esther and mai Brian only coz my mom and dad say they are nice but I love Ma Sharon… her kids are nice especially Godfrey.. her family are the only people I trust. My dad was so worried about us that when he got cancer (and beat it) he started drafting a will to protect Unique, Ibrahim, Anesu and Me from our family. My mom kept telling him not to because my mom is too nice… but im glad my dad see’s through all their shit…

The family from my mothers side are so BEAUTIFUL… I have never met people like them in my life… they are sooooo sweet… and they LOVE us and LOVE my dad and my dad loves them back. My dad loves his brothers and sisters but they don’t…they want his money and nothing else… i hope they prove me wrong one day but until that day, i got nothing for them…NOTHING…

It is a privilege to have know Jacob Mutambara and Elizabeth Mutambara. I will never forget you! I never thought I could love someone so much and at one point i thought i didn’t have the ability to love anyone else other than my mom, dad and bro’s but your life and death showed me other wise. It is so hard sometimes. When i visited your graves I was about to cry but i never want to show people my tears fears so I id not but im so angry for both of you leaving me so early. It wasn’t you fault but just when I finally had a chance to know you, you left me and IM SO ANGRY! …damn-it im crying again…

I need to stop writing…

Uncle Jacob, I am graduating next week for Journalism…this has always been for you. LOVE YOU ALWAYS!

LOVE YOU JACOB AND ELIZABETH!

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